Fight Against Sin
The first expression of that love at the age of four was avoiding sin.
“If that’s a sin, I do not want to do it any more; I do not want to insult God!” At that age, a fight began, which became fierce. She pursues sin in her and around her: “I was so scared of sin that I despised people who swore or committed another sin.” Father Reichard says: “She heard blasphemy and revolts against God; she could not detach herself from those visions. She suffered very much seeing God insulted. She was urged to pray incessantly, sighing, but at the same time, she felt peace in her heart; contentment and childlike trust in God.” Continue reading
Resistance to Sin
The Servant of God hated sin and everything that was opposed to faith. When she was a schoolgirl, she avoided children using bad language. She cried about it and disliked school for this reason. Later, at a dinner, where people had improper discussions, she preferred fasting. She stood up and went out in order to pray and cry. In her ecstasies, she saw the vices in general and particularly with their different causes. This sight was painful to her, almost unbearable. “She spent all the time of dinner in her room praying and crying, and as her room was next to the dining room, she made the precaution of blocking up her ears so that she was not able to hear through the partition what was said.” She was clearly shown how to correct vices.
“See, my daughter,” said our Lord, “all that must be corrected by you.” She sighed and said: “O, what a heavy burden! Your will be done!” She was troubled in her tender joys considering the many insults against God. She herself experienced moments of doubt and discouragement, when she realized that she was a sinner and unworthy of God’s grace. On the other hand, when the Servant of God saw in her visions the conversion of sinners, she felt great joy. Father Reichard testifies to this: “She witnessed many conversions among the enemies of Catholicism, the schismatic and unbelievers, through whom God shows His mercy […]. From this experience of mercy, of God’s might, again she received great consolation”. As a member of the Sacred-Heart’s Association, she had the concern to compensate for the sins of others through her prayers and the penance she took upon herself.