Constant Effort to Serve in the Name of Christ
The Servant of God loved poverty in an extraordinary way. She loved her humble condition and the privations due it, or rather she did not desire anything except for what she was given, and of what she was given she gave away everything she could. Before founding her Institute, she vowed to practice poverty. She wanted to possess only – with her confessor’s consent – what was strictly necessary for subsistence, all the rest had to be used for the glory of God and for the relief of the poor according to her confessor’s opinion. Continue reading
The Servant of God always carefully preserved her virginal purity. She loved this virtue with preference, and her prayers as a child, and as a young girl reveal this: “Oh my Jesus, grant me the grace of always maintaining my heart very pure. Won’t You, my good Jesus, give me the grace of serving You in the state of virginity and to be able to die in the same? I do not want to be a virgin only in name, but my heart must be adorned with virtues which You demand of a virgin”. At the age of 14, she made the vow of virginity for a year and at the age of 21 the vow of perpetual chastity. Continue reading
Throughout her life, the Servant of God was a model of obedience. As a child, she practiced this virtue, which was going to mark her life. She understood that God’s will expressed itself through the voices of her parents and of her spiritual director. Since then she started a tireless fight against the defect of her temper, knowing that stubbornness could lead to the failure of what God’s grace had sown into her soul. For her, the chaff is above all her own will and as “she wants to become a saint”, she knew that she could achieve this only by surrendering her own judgment. She will be obedient, no matter what it costs her. Continue reading
Manifestation and Expression of this Love for God
Even when she was very young, she felt a pleasant joy in saying again and again to God: “I want to love You, I will love You, I want to long only for Your will. Won’t You grant me the grace to love You, dear God, to love only You and to always and in everything do Your holy will?” She also felt the growing desire to “become a saint.” At the age of eight, she was afraid of not being able to love God appropriately and she wondered: “Could I, oh dear God, love You all my life and always do what pleases You?”
Deliberate Renunciation of the Vanities of the World
From her earliest Youth until her death she kept away from everything that could be a temptation for her senses. She resolutely turned away from false values; she despised all the vanities of the world and kept her attention firmly on Jesus Christ and eternal life. Already as a child she left the games in order to pray. At the age of seven, she told her parents that she did not want any gifts any more. She wanted to become a saint. When she was twelve years old, the desire to become a sister germinated in her soul and she felt the strong need to completely separate from the world: “I incessantly asked God to protect me from the world”. She wants to protect her Daughters from any attack of the world: “You will not find consolation and joy with God as long as you are seeking them in the world”. “You wear the religious habit to show the world that you are dead to it”. “Avoid irrelevant discourses and above all those about matters of the world!” One could multiply the quotations.